i think i’m the most complicated person alive, i over think things, i’m insecure, i’m overly emotional i have so many flaws that i can’t even track all of them down, but then again who can blame me? i’ve seen so many things in my lifetime that makes me fear being hurt makes me fear to end up like them. i sometimes keep to myself because if people really knew how i felt or what i’d think they would trip out on the thoughts that go through my mind. over the years i’ve held in so much pain that i’m sensitive to everything now and the little things make me cry. i’ve bottled emotions for so long that now i can barely hold any emotions in. i try my best to be a positive person and usually i am, but sometimes being positive is hard to do. . i feel like no one deserves to put up with someone who is emotionally screwed up as i am. i feel like my friends don’t deserve to hear about my problems because somehow i always have one i feel like my family will never be proud of me even if i’m doing the best i can. in general i feel like i have so many issues within myself that i would hate to have someone deal with me. i found someone who makes me the happiest girl alive, someone who i’m madly in love with and sometimes i feel like i suck at even showing him that i am happy. . that theres nothing more in this world that i want. sometimes i wonder what i can do to fix these issues of mine, but till then all i can do is vent . . vent on here and hope i’ll feel better about it.